I used to think the biggest thing that made me nervous was when the kids at work were quiet. See I work as a chemical health counselor for adolescents. So, when they get quiet it just about always means trouble. That trouble usually equates to calls to parents and/or probation officers. Sometimes it even means that the police come and take one of these teenagers to the juvenile detention center for a probation violation.
Then I found out I was pregnant. Please keep in mind, I had no basis for the worries that came next. I worried that something would happen and I would miscarry. Then I worried that something would be wrong with my baby. Then I worried that I would do something to hurt my baby.
When those worries proved baseless, I worried about labor. The only legitimate worry I had there was that while in labor, my son's heart rate kept dropping. So I had a C-section.
Now I worry about him - is he okay? Does this particular sneeze/rash/face/etc mean something more than a sneeze/rash/face/etc. When I leave him with someone else (yes, even my husband) I worry about whether or not he's okay. Pretty much all of these fears (especially leaving him with my husband) are baseless as well.
Good thing I rarely ever act on those worries!
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Wisper! What a job you have! Sort of scary at times?
ReplyDeleteI bet most moms have worried exactly as you. I did! It makes perfect sense and sometimes it doesn't but it's natural and real life!
My husband sat next to me and read this post as I typed it. He commented that he was glad I didn't actually do anything about my nerves leaving our son with him. I told him it was just instinctual.
DeleteAs far as my job - I actually love my job most days. It just gets rather hectic and messy some days.
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Good for you for not always acting on your fears. I took my 2-year-old nephew swimming and I was terrified I'd drown him. I did it anyway. And we all survived! (And had lots of fun, despite being nervous about it. Bonus!)
ReplyDeleteAnd that is a perfect example of why I don't always act on those fears. Besides, my husband is a wonderful father. I just need to remind myself to let go a little as a mother!
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